Tuesday, March 04, 2008
20:36 ●

hey ho..
LAME btol la.!

ok just now after school went to theodore's house. we were
suppose to do geog project but who ask him be so Tupid
and take out guitar hero. l0ls. at last me nab and atika
was like Mad rocker playing it. haiiz. but i can say nab is
good! she can play a lot song. (i think) haha.

anyways i'm so stress up living Here! it feel like HELL!
Wtf do i deserve being in this family. they never care about
me. they never think about my feelings. everything my bro
here my bro there. but my bro got do anything for them?
he got buy any present on their b-day? he remember their
b-day? NO WAY HE WILL! he always outside with his punksai
friends. PUNK-sai Friend. Get it? Whatever.
i always wanted a lot of things. but i never get one at all!. my mum
always say ok i will get it. BUT WHERE IS THAT FUCKING THING!
sometimes i feel jealous and wanted to steal other people parents when
i see they buy for their love one Mp4 or Psp or even Hp. FYI, my mum say
that once she buy psp we as in me and my bro will share it. But what i get
is...... HE USE IT ALONE! and i get to touch it only for few hours and for
one or 2 days. IS THAT FAIR? EVERYTHING I DO FOR THEM! BUY
PRESENT FOR THEIR B-DAY, COOK RICE THIS THAT AND WHAT
DID I GET? ROTTEN EGGS!

I FEEL LIKE CRYING. I FEEL LIKE ENDING MY LIFE.
EVERYTIME I SEE THEIR FACE I FEEL LIKE KILLING THEM.
EVERYTIME I'M AT HOME I FEEL LIKE A LONER.
EVERYTIME I GO OUT I FEEL LIKE A CLOWN.
EVERYTIME I WISH FOR SOMETHING I WILL NOT GET AT ALL!
EVERYTIME I SEE OTHERS WITH NEW AND FASHIONABLE STUFFS
I'M JEALOUS!
EVERYTIME I SEE MY BRO GETTING NEW STUFF BUT I DON'T
EVERYTIME I SEE MY FRIEND HAVING GOOD STUFF I DON'T
EVERYTIME I GET LAUGH AT CAUSE I'M FAT
EVERYTHING I DO IS WRONG IN OTHERS EYES.
WHAT DO U PEOPLE WANT ME TO DO TO MAKE U GUYS HAPPY?
WHAT DO U PEOPLE WANT ME TO DO SO THAT U GUYS WILL BUY
ME ANYTHING I WANT?

SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE U PEOPLE ARE DOING THIS TO ME CAUSE
I'M NOT UR BIOLOGICAL DAUGHTER. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I DON'T
BELONG HERE! IN THIS FAMILY AND THIS FAMILY

xxxxxx

( Run to the city. )